Gaia Voices

A big sigh.
Thursday, AM.
I have just posted “Part 1″ of this work, which required my editing mind, looking for spelling errors, trying to view the paragraphs with eyes not exclusively my own. Now it’s time to sink back into receptivity, and into twilight containing shapes I may dimly comprehend, or not.
To review, I am going […]

Sharing with a friend, the despair of my previous post, she asked me if I had consulted the I Ching.
I confessed that had not occurred to me. Silly me. When it gets this bad, the I Ching is a valuable place to turn.
So now I have.
Astounding.
As I first write this, I am working on what […]

Eye
I
Aye aye,
My Christ
It hasn’t been easy.
I’ve made mistakes, sinned.
This is too volatile to be shared much here
Or any where.
But this much I can say, at this point.
Eye
I
Aye, aye,
mychrist

Setting out again, on a new level.
I have agreed to be Clerk of the Twin Cities Friends Meeting (TCFM) for the next year and a half, supported by Anne Supplee as Assistant Clerk.
I agreed to do this as a way of
enacting,
of better understanding,
mychrist.
Something happened last fall.
I am still finding my way, learning how to talk […]

Looking back, I would say I have not written here in over a month because I was spent.
I use “spent” because “exhausted” has some negative connotations that are not right. I could have said “happily exhausted,” but “spent” also has connotations of having a resource and having it depleted, which fit well here.
.: I have […]

Calm has entered my life. Not that my life is completely calm but, sometime in the last few days, a tightly-stretched band of anxiety let go. Thinking of it as I write this, I breathe a sigh of relief. While I don’t think I’ll ever know exactly what happened, I want to sketch some […]

Well!
I DO know how to keep my life interesting!
(.: Do you really think it is “I” that is doing this?!)
I would say the history I am about to review was triggered in part by my experience of Abounding Love at the FGC Gathering in early July.
(I have heard of several others who have also experienced […]

I’ve had two strong conversations about theology and its place in our midst in the last two days. We have touched on topics of “Gospel Ministry” and “Gospel Order” but what has been stirred in me are thoughts about naming “my christ.”
I Name my cars and my computers. It works for me. Not sure why. […]

I think it’s time to draw the bedside curtain around the drama of my suffering. “Life is suffering,” and like the drama of a child trapped in a well, it can be mesmerizing, but beyond a certain small circle of those involved, it’s really a distraction. At some point I just need to do the […]

We / I are trapped in a profound confusion.
Look at us, the industrial world…
I cannot be still. I am lost. We have lost our way.
At the moment, I must say, I feel quite pathetic.
I offer this to you, my friends, who can look upon me with the eyes of love,
when you choose to.
I am trying […]