A big sigh.
Thursday, AM.
I have just posted “Part 1″ of this work, which required my editing mind, looking for spelling errors, trying to view the paragraphs with eyes not exclusively my own. Now it’s time to sink back into receptivity, and into twilight containing shapes I may dimly comprehend, or not.
To review, I am going […]
Sharing with a friend, the despair of my previous post, she asked me if I had consulted the I Ching.
I confessed that had not occurred to me. Silly me. When it gets this bad, the I Ching is a valuable place to turn.
So now I have.
Astounding.
As I first write this, I am working on what […]
I’m doing hard work. I want to give myself credit for that.
Seeing myself as less than who I believed myself to be.
Working not to let the pain get in the way, too much. Working to breathe into my “new reality,” to accept it with as much grace as possible.
Working to find language, consistent with […]
Calm has entered my life. Not that my life is completely calm but, sometime in the last few days, a tightly-stretched band of anxiety let go. Thinking of it as I write this, I breathe a sigh of relief. While I don’t think I’ll ever know exactly what happened, I want to sketch some […]
I’ve had two strong conversations about theology and its place in our midst in the last two days. We have touched on topics of “Gospel Ministry” and “Gospel Order” but what has been stirred in me are thoughts about naming “my christ.”
I Name my cars and my computers. It works for me. Not sure why. […]
I offer my inner journey as a gift to my community. Like the gift of a child, it doesn’t have to amount to much, by worldly standards, to be sincere and to be a treasure, to those with eyes to see.
Last week I shared my sense that, what we in the West call “Christ” is […]
A question that comes to me is, what kind of faith is it that you have, or hope to have, in this work or elsewhere?
Is it a confidence in some positive outcome, eventually?
Is it “faithfulness”, or a willingness to act as your truest and deepest impulses lead you, even if you don’t have confidence in […]
I have prayed about doing this I Ching so publically.
I am taking these risks for my Lady Gaia.
You may say my Lady is not the most beautiful or the most powerful Lady,
Or some other invidious comparison to try and daunt my loyalty, but I am immune to such slurs.
I am of her. My flesh is […]
We were talking last night about the power of sustained prayer and Friend Ralph told us that as a farm boy around 60 years ago he discovered the power of a strong and sustained link to God. He said there were tasks on the farm that his brothers simply wouldn’t do, and that he found […]